Perhaps the Stars will Allign in my Favor Someday🥲

Sometimes we get struck by a feeling of loneliness.When we feel empty.When we feel like no one is there to offer a shoulder for us to cry on.When these phenomena happen to occur at night, we most likely turn to an 'insane' solution–watching the stars.They become our next and best companions.Just watching these fascinating features of nature brings the kind of tranquility that is unmatchable.

So here I come again brethren.Am still the victim here–though not of a fancy dream😂.Of what then?

Let's see, shall we?

Saying 'I was lonely' would be an understatement owing to what I felt.I know you remember 'Perhaps my Dreams Were a Fraction of Reality'.The thoughts of I not having a place to begin from flooded my mind.It made me feel lonely.Desperate.Empty.Simply having the blues.And in my room, at night, I saw nothing but darkness.Surprisingly, the lights were on.My heart so cold, I could not text or try calling anyone.Even music, the all time saviour of people's soul, could not heal mine.The lyrics would have made me more empty🥲🥲.Ooh, is there anything like more empty😂?You now see how bad my situation was.Even rich podcasts were nothing but sharp machetes cutting the older scars afresh.So I could not listen to them.

Just like others, I also saw it better to turn to this crazy medicine–looking at the stars.Not that I had decided to further in astronomy, but, at least you know what desperation can do.

So I went slowly outside and while standing I began giving the sky a view.

Alas!What did I see...

Everything looked weird.Definitely nothing like a sky I've ever seen.Allow me to share what I saw, even if out of the blue.There were five stars–at least the ones that were conspicuous.

In the middle of four of the stars, was the other star.It was less bright compared to others.Maybe this represented the emptyness in me.The lack of hope in me.I could tell for sure that this was a complete replica of my life's image.And it moved side ways and forward and backwards.But each time it was pushed away by the other stars.So it unstably retained it's central position.Central positions are habited by the mighty.People with control.But look at me, I lacked even the slightest control of my life🥲😩.Of what significance was the central position.This is my star ⭐.But it's light was deeming slowly.Maybe the nuclear fusion reactions were dying away, just like the chemical reactions in my body because my feelings were too dying away🥲🥲.Perhaps someday my star will shine well again.

On the western side, was yet another star.This one seemed to be a little friendly to mine.As mine lost energy, it received some from this one.At least it was bright.So there was hope in it.It was not one of those repelling mine.I don't know if I was being deluded, but in it, I saw the faces of my family members.Oh, this one represented my family.Oh!How dearly I love my family♥️.🥲Out of these tears of agony, the thought of how concerned my family is for me, made me smile, though slightly.Perhaps someday I will reciprocate the same love.

Dear readers, we all have those we consider as family, remember this; they are the only ones that will not leave you in the dark.They will do their best to give you the best.Love your family♥️.You must not necessarily be related to them by blood. 

On the eastern side, another star.Light from it formed a heart-like shape.I know you know what I mean.Love, right?I thought love should be sweet.But mine to you tastes bitter.Wait!I don't even know whether you exist🥲.Where are you my love😩😩.

I want you....👉👈I want your sleepy confused look when you wake up. I want to be the warmth that fills the space in your bed....I want to be the sheets that your fingers crave at night😪;the blanket that wraps around you all night....I want to drink coffee with you😥,share some records we find. I want to talk about everything in the world newspapers.... I want to discuss with you♥️,to be stubborn and quick-witted with you. I want to have differences between us. I want your flaws....all of them😩.... I want to go to the deepest corners of your mind and never get bored of you. But I don't know where to find you.Perhaps I will find you someday.

Nevertheless, have these wherever you are...

On the northern side, the star was a little bit confusing.On one side it shone brightly, a sign of celebration because of my melancholy–'fake' friends I suppose.On the other side of the star, it's light was fading away.Real friends 😌coming through to my aid.Maybe with time I will get rid of fake friends or maybe they will change.And maybe the real ones will never change😊😌.Perhaps my friends will all be real and last forever.

Dear friends, thanks for being there for us.Especially my friends.Idc whether you are real or fake, so long as you have been there for me, thanks.After all, am fake to some people or at least they put it that way😂.So whom am I to call someone fake??No friend of mine will ever be considered fake.

On the southern side, there was this star that shone with all it's might–almost destroying my retina.This one seemed jealous of mine.And it's glory was maybe due to mine falling apart.Have you ever heard of a sadistic smile or laughter😩the star assumed one.Maybe this one represented my enemies.Perhaps someday we will be at peace with them.

I PUT MY HOPE ON RECEIVING FAVOUR–SOMEDAY.Hey!Perhaps the Stars will Align in My Favour Someday✨.

~Sanju